I was given a nickname in college that stuck... gadget girl, geekgirl.... everything geeky amuses me! I had to restart this blog, so am slowly repopulating it with documents etc from way back when. I try to get the dates accurate as to when it was actually written, from the files themselves. Otherwise, meh, the only one that really matters to is me. Enjoy the read.....
Sunday, January 7, 2007
Letters Unsent
Dear Joe,
I liked you a lot. What we thought was real was only puppy love. Then we both expanded our worlds. I heard you were getting married the other day and spending the rest of your life with someone else. I just want to let you know that I hope you’re happy.
Dear Kevin,
We learned so much. We were immature when we met and bonded our lives together. I was so afraid of life I put the burden upon your shoulders, from the bottom of my heart; I’m sorry for that. Even though you treated me poorly, you were the only one who loved me for who I am and didn’t have expectations. You never once regretted loving me, but it just scared you away.
Dear Ben,
We cared so deeply it surprised me in the end. What you said to others did not justify how you treated me. Why couldn’t you talk to me? I always listened. But it was always silent, and I had to go. It was too cold.
Dear Fred,
I like you muchly. I was vulnerable and I saw the light shining from within your heart. I didn’t know how to show you how much you meant to me. If you could grant me one request, don’t forget me. Or our joint-custody dog Siggy.
Dear Shawn,
I cared too much. As a teenager, I would’ve sold my soul for a boy like you. But I’m afraid I don’t have that in me anymore. Everything in your life was dark and cold. I thought I could be the one to change that. You tried to be deep with your philosophies on life, but failed miserably. Please be careful, not everyone can take your depression like I can.
Dear Edgar,
For you it was all for fun, and that – we had. I just needed more than you could give me. You said you needed time. You said you needed space. You said you couldn’t be tied down right now. I saw you the other day with your new girlfriend. She’s pretty; seems sweet.
Dear Dave,
You showed me what it was to truly love someone. I wish that was all I needed. I made decisions for us; you made them for yourself. I am tired of that escalator ride, it broke. and I don't know how to repair it. Everything before you was just practice for the real thing. I can’t wait for the future and what I am sure it brings us; our lives together. I love that you listen, and truly hear what I have to say. My heart grows with every act of love and thoughtfulness you commit.
Monday, January 1, 2007
Okay... so I never posted here.....
The blog's here, but nothing is written. I found a bunch of stuff in my PC (and out) and I think I am going to put it all here. It's years old, so don't hate me and the horrible writing! Sorry it took so long.....
yeah, this shows up in the middle of it all... because I dated the posts for the time they were written. Obviously I couldn't have posted on blogger in 1998! I have only been a member since 2006! and had to restart the blog now a couple of times, so not even sure what it shows as my membership date now.
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